My inner sense

I wrote my last post in Oct 2007. Now we are in the fag end of 2008. I am quite surprised to note that I have not posted even one single article in 2008. I asked myself Why? Pat came the reply from my sub sense I never experienced life in 2008.

Is that true? I asked my prime sense. My prime sense asked me to list down top 5 memories of 2008. I started listing down my memories...

1. Establishing a team
2. Setting up process for new campus operations
3. Achieved major savings for the organization. Lot of new initiatives.
4. My speech in FM Conferences
5. An incident in my office

and off course the latest Mumbai attack.

My inner sense was laughing at me. I got irritated and asked why you are laughing at me?!!! Before even the inner sense gave me a reply, I realized my self , out of the top five memories not even one memory reflect or relate something to my personal life.

I am always told I am very emotional, I value relationships and very attached to all the family members. Yes I too have agreed with them. But over the last few years (may be 5 years), I felt I have changed a lot. Though this period was a crucial part of my career growth, I have always asked a question to myself , am I forgetting my family and my close circle? I always ask a question to myself , why didn't I remember my parents, my brothers, my sisters , my brother in laws and my sister in laws, my uncle , my aunt even once a while in a period of one week or some time to one month or more than one month? Am I the only person facing this difficulty? I don't know.

My inner circle of bonding / feeling moved away from humans to gadgets. I spend more time with my mobile, my black berry and my laptop. I tried to add one more list to my gadgets that is an Ipod. But some how or other I am not able to listen to that . My laptop became my parents, mobile became my wife and blackberry became my kid and my ipod has become my relative. Yes very true . I have started living with non living things and by that I am also now getting stamped as a " non living thing" . The same world who said I am a more family bonded person and an emotional human being is asking me a question of are you a "being?"!!!

I told my inner sense, don't think that I am a non living creature. I will not forget 2008 as it is a special year for me and my family.

I put my son Aniruudh into Cricket Coaching. (my childhood dream) I gifted him with a full cricket kit and felt as if it was a gift from my father to me. More than my son, I enjoyed that gift . I took him to the ground for his first match played at the ground. I enjoyed his happiness.

My daugher Mathangge's "Salangai" puja . It was special. I realized that day how much effort my wife Krithika and her master has put in shaping her up in dancing. I was watching with awe her various steps. An artist in the making.

I celebrated my 11th wedding Anniversary at Ooty, and went into a memory rewind by staying in the same hotel where I stayed for my honeymoon. For the first time I enjoyed the mountain rail. I was enjoying the nature at its best.

I told my inner sense , I can say more things but i will keep it to my heart and refresh myself whenever I need energy. I told my innersense that though I wear different masks at different place, I will never loose my originality.

Thank you my inner sense, before people totally discard me as an obsolete or scrap item , let me start relating things with the human world again .

But all I need is a promise from you to provide me a human world with full of true love, bonding, brother hood, peace, and patriotic statesmen. You can take your time but I request you not to take too much time , other wise the rest of the world will follow me......


With luv,

Ragu